cathy_conway

Got a hair cut today.....I think her goal was too cut me bald....I walked away with a few strands left. :( She acted like she was on a mission to Boldly Go Where No Man Has Gone Before. yuk It will grow back..meanwhile I have to feel kinda extremish..

I washed my car......wouldnt you know it it rained? HA but I fooled it....I was already home and in the garage...TA DAH. ha I sat outside in the swing while it was raining....the wind was softly blowing and you could smell the breeze.....it was nice...for about 15 minutes, ha.

Ginny came back from seeing the east texas family.....she was delayed in Dallas due to bad weather.....made it in 3 hrs later around 530.

Going back to work tomorrow....4 days of fun...yeehaw.

Mama said Elias was awfully sad....I sure hate that.....but am not really shocked. I felt she would dump him sooner or later....she just doesnt seem like she is the staying kind. Thats my uneducated and unasked opinion. I dont like seeing Elias hurt.....but I know the right girl is out there. I have been praying if she is not the one that she will move on so he can find the right one and not make a mistake he will regret with her. I know the Lord is looking out for Elias....hasnt HE already proved that this last year?

It has been awhile since I updated......I was gonna use my space for the journal but there are people I work with that look at it..and some things are personal and meant for basically my family to read.
It has been a rough week. David's kids called him last week and Rebecca was threatening to kill herself. David called...and he was upset and wanted his Dad to do something. David could hear their Mom screaming at Rebecca....and he was very upset about it all. From then on he was a bear to be around...the weekend was awful...and even though I can try to understand what he must be feeling....how can I really? I dont have children...nor have they been taken from me. I know he must feel so helpless because he can do nothing for them. He was very calm talking with them both...I was proud of him for that...because he was seething..I could see it in his face. Rebecca was asking him why he had left them and why didnt he try and stay with her Mom and he told her that she had divorced him...he had no choice but to leave. Anyway...he was very upset for days....the whole weekend was spent in this awful forboding angry silence. He wouldnt go to church with me Sunday....he wasnt playing his guitar...he had no song....just down as down could be. Saturday I went to Jonie's wedding by myself....she seemed kinda wounded that David didnt come...but what could I say or do about that? Afterwards I went to Mama and Daddys and stayed till around 9...Ginny came over and we all played aggravation. Sunday I was determined he wasnt gonna keep me from church. I didnt want to go...but didnt want to stay home with him either! Anyway...I pretended nothing was wrong at church....just made sure I came in after church started and left as soon as the door opened. But I kept a stiff upper lip even though I wanted to just cry. Went and ate with the fam at Manuels....and was pretty much a downer I am sure.....sorry family....its tough being married and not knowing what to do when the crap hits the fan. Anyway....I went back to church Sunday night....nothing had changed at home. Becky presented an idea for the church to do...she was passing out index cards for you to put the name of a loved one one...and wht they might be going through...and then next week we will all pick one to pray for. So I purposed to put David and his kids on a card each. Still trying to keep a stiff upper lip....but my eyes kept tearing up on me....but no one saw. I thought if they gave an altar call....that I might go up...but the occasion didnt arise. But the Lord was watching over me......as they were dismissing the service...Samantha comes over to me and puts her arm around me...and then Shaye does the same.....they were not even sitting with each other...they were on opposite sides of the church. Thats when I lost it...and began to cry.....Samantha said a word to me from the Lord....and Shaye said a few words over me...then Glennell came up to me and said the Lord told her that the things I was fearing were not even gonna happen...and then this other lady that I dont even know came up to me and said that the Lord spoke to her...to tell me that he loved me as no other one could...that I was special and so cherished more than I knew and that he was gonna take care of the things going on. I told Shaye and Sam what was going on...and they both said they would begin to pray that the Lord would bring back to David (jrs) mind the things he had experienced at church here...and that he would somehow someway get into church in Maine...and draw Rebecca in also...and they said they would pray tht the Lord would break Davids heart....where he would be receptive to the spirits moving. Even though nothing much was solved per se....I felt a peace about it all then. I couldnt seem to quit crying though.....just was so stressful....worrying over David...and even his kids too. Wondering if he wished he was still with their Mom....all those things were going through my mind. Anyway...I went over to Mama and Daddys after church....and told them the things that had happened. You know, I started to go to Foursquare since David wasnt with me.....but if I had of....no one would have had the discernment that those women did at Grace...and I would have left just as heavy burdenend as I came with. So I am glad I went to Grace. Anyway.....things seemed to have broke that night......he still wasnt talking much to me at home.....but then Monday I heard him strumming on his guitar...and then today he was singing with KLOVE the christian songs...and tonight he is playing and singing again. So he has come around again. It was funny the song that caught his ear this morning was by Michael W Smith....Healing Rain......and he said he wanted to learn it. I thought we had experienced His Healing Rain this week......though David didnt know any of the things that happened at church. But I know...and I know that the Lord has helped us and sent that healing rain into our house. I told Shaye to pray for Peace in our house....because there wasnt any at that time. Bro. Lamb added his two cents worth...he said his one son that wouldnt have nothing to do with him...he said sometimes he gets just like David...and his family just knows to leave him alone. He said he was gonna try to find a time to talk to David....not council him...just share his experiences with him. I am glad this storm is over......I guess I learn from each one. I learn that I am the peacemaker in our family.....which is not something I want the job of exactly...but it is mine.
Thank the Lord for the support of church people.

Been quite slow today. Havent done much of anything...which is really nice once in awhile. Watched Return from witch mountain this morning....it was a bit slow...had never seen it before.

I have worn my mask for the last two nights...the first night I only wore it a little over 3 hrs....it was driving me nuts and I couldnt sleep. I woke up once and was choking and kinda panicked...but sucked it up inside and calmed myself down. I couldnt cough...it would make me choke...so I had to kinda cough with my mouth closed.....finally I got a grip on it. I woke up with a stiff neck. One thing that was wrong was I think we didnt have the strap that was holding on tight enough and it was leaking air. Last night I wore it from about 1130 til 6ish...so that was pretty much a A for effort. At least when I turned to my sides it didnt start whistling and leaking air. Was a little better.....still NOT COOL at all. I cried the first night....shouldnt have to be wearing crap like that. Still not very happy with the situation..

David went to practice this afternoon...I took a nap while he was gone. He brought home burgers for us for supper.

Nothing much going on with me.....

Went to Mama and Daddys this morning.....we thought it was gonna be just us and Ginny. We didnt know Daddy had invited a bunch of people. We might have opted out. Anyway...we stayed and ate...and then we decided to come on home and try to get the pool open. We had to suck some of the water out and man it took forever!! I thought I was gonna die out there...it was so hot. I know I will be sunburned....my pearly white skin...UGH. Anyway....it took us about 2 hrs.....and we still arent done. But our new sand filter will be here tomorrow....so that will make a world of difference. Those liitle skimpy filters they put in with the pool dont work worth a hoot.....so this one should be alot better.
I have to work one more day...then I am off 4. Cant wait.

It really looked bad for a while...the skies were so dark and stormy looking....but it just kinda moved south and east of us. As bad as they were saying it was...baseball size hail and all that.....I am glad it moved away.
My truck was under the parking lot at work...so I wasnt worried about that. I was worrying about my pretty hibiscus plants...I didnt want it to hail and destroy them right before they are gonna be blooming.

Meatloaf I fixed last night was good...I made me a baked potato with it...it was really tasty.

David didnt do nothing today.....but then I didnt expect him to either.

I was SO sleepy at work today...I think I nodded off one time.....I couldnt keep my eyes open.

Time for a bath...

You know here lately if I was Lot's wife in the Bible I would be a pile of salt. Because I tell you sometimes it just is safer and more peaceful to be alone. David must be going through the change of life or something and all I want to say if you need more "hormonies" then go to the dang doctor and buy some testosterone or something. Who knows what has his drawers in a wad.....but I am tired of it. Tired of doing everything and never getting a Thank you or you didnt have to do that nor nothing.....tired of being sick and tired.

Other than that...lets see...I did laundry.....cuz thats what I am supposed to do, me being the dutiful wife and who wears all the clothes...not.....but hey its a womans job isnt it? As well as working a 48 hr week>? Yeah of course it is. I also fixed supper for us and put in the fridge because I will be working on Saturday but David is off and doesnt need to be bothered about fixing supper....that is womans work....yeah of course it is. SO I have that all ready to go. You suppose he can get out of the lazy boy long enough to put it in the oven? Maybe that wont stress him too much I hope. yeah thats it...
I sound a bit bitter huh? Well...maybe cuz I am.

Rained cats and dogs here tonight for about 15 minutes....even hailed marble size hail.....but I said a prayer and the hail stopped...thank the Lord for that. It was nice and had the prettiest rainbow...it was a complete one too. I sat outside in the swing until the rain was slowing down....it was blowing on me a little and smelled so nice.

I am off Monday...I took off thinking my husband and I might spend the day together.....wonder what gave me the idea he even wanted to?
Nevertheless....Daddy is gonna cook out so I will go over....dont know if David will.....right now I dont care.

I dont like feeling this way.....I wish I could turn the page and it would go away.....or write myself out of the story......

My arms are itching like crazy. David just gave me my allergy shots...I could claw my arms off! UGH

It still hotter than who'd a thought it.......will it ever be cool again?? OHHH

I fixed pork chops for supper and they sucked. They just didnt have any taste to me. Kate sure liked what I didnt eat, ha. She would grab a piece and hide under the table and eat it like a wild animal, ha. I guess the meat brought out the "wild thang" in her. But anyway...I fixed corn on the cob...and it still tasted green...and I fixed a baked potato and they both got cold before I could get the chops done....so it just basically was crappy.

Visited with Mama and Daddy a few hours this afternoon.....they werent doing anything.....

Stopped and bought some groceries at Lowes....I didnt need much so I didnt want to brave Walmart for those things. I was in and out in 30 minutes..that was good. There was this toothless old lady that was driving in front of me going about 5 mph in the Lowes parking lot....I went around her and parked. Then she beat me to the baskets and she was the sweetest thing...she offered me a basket. Then I kept running into her in the store...and I would smile at her and she would give me this toothless smile....she was kinda hunched over...I just wanted to walk with her and talk to her....she seemed so lonely and sweet. She probably wasnt...but I felt like she was anyway.

One more day off......but I took off Monday so that will give me a break in the week...

I was sitting here listening to the Isaacs....good music....toe tapping music....so I thought I'd update.

Tuesday was our 3rd anniversary.....was a pretty nice day. Juan gave David a $25.00 gift certificate to eat at Texas Roadhouse....so we went there. We had planned on going to Logans....that is our favorite place to eat...but we couldnt turn down a free meal ! ha It was good....almost as good as Logan's but not quite. David gave me a heart shaped silver locket and I gave him a jump drive, ha! Really....its a little key chain jump drive.....holds music, pictures or data. This anniversary was definetly better than last year.....he didnt get me nothing or even say "Happy Anniversary"! But we had been kinda fussing all weekend. It all started last Thursday...when I bought the jump drive....I didnt want to wait til our anniversary to give it too him. So I just laid it on the counter and when he came home he asked what that was for. I told him that it was his anniversary gift...and I guess Fathers Day too. So he said "Well I dont want no Fathers Day gift...I dont feel like a dad" and he wouldnt even LOOK at the gift I had bought him. So that hurt my feelings.... Then...for three days he barely spoke to me...I guess he was depressed. So I am still not putting it all together whats going on with him.....and hes all depressed and sleeping all day long Saturday while I am at work. Finally MONDAY...I sent him a text message and told him that I didnt understand why he acted like an ass when I gave him a gift that was given for OUR anniversary and as second thought Fathers day.....and he said again he just didnt feel like a dad. So...anyway....I told him I had bought the gift thinking of our anniversary not Fathers day...initially. So..I guess he knew he better get me something or die! haha

Juan loaned David a shop vac so we can drain the pool. Drain it for the most part that is....we are gonna get it really low and then clean whats left and add to it. We have a new filter that will clean it better this year. Juan also gave him a "bug" that goes in the bottom of the pool and is fueled by water...and it swims around the bottom stirring it up so the filter can suck it out. It looks like a yellow beetle....about the size of a football helmet. Hopefully that will work good. It looks like it will anyway. I cant wait to get it fixed....I am so ready to get in it.

My hibiscus plants are 5 feet tall! Finally they are getting little buds in the middle of the leaves. So they will bloom soon....they will be so pretty I know. Mama bought her a new one....I cant understand why hers dont do good. Its got to be a soil thing.

Nothing much going on...

Was a nice cool day today...clouds hung around all day long. I basically just didnt do nothing all day......just played on the computer...watched Days of our Lives.....went and got my hair cut and then went to Mama and Daddy's.
Me and Mama had a good time chatting....mostly me gabbing....and she was listening....but she was talking too. I tend to rattle like crazy when its just me and Mama.....I dont do that too much with anybody but her. I guess of anyone I know...she is the one I am most comfortable with. She is my best friend...I guess that is why.
Daddy came in later in the day....he dont say much but he always stays in the room and listens to be gab, ha. So I know he is glad to see me anyway.

Mama fried fish for David specifically...he had been moaning that I never fix that...Boo Hoo. ha So she fixed me and Ginny some hot links and potatoes....it was good. For some reason it didnt stick to my ribs.....around 8 I was famished and looking for anything to eat.

Ginny seemed kinda sad....but not too bad. I feel sorry for her....I hate it so bad for her...but I am glad she is away from that goof ball man at the same time.

Did I say yesterday that we had one bloom on our barrel cactus? It was a coral color...I was so thrilled I went running through the house calling David "we have a cactus blooming David!!!!" haha....so we both go running out in the yard like the Beverly Hillbillies to go SEE...haha . I was thrilled what can I say??

Still no hibiscus buds....but it takes time. They are three foot tall..the limbs...really pretty even with no blooms.

I was telling Mama and Daddy about church last night and Daddy says to Mama "Looks like we might need to change churches" and I nearly fell out of my chair. So maybe they will change over....I sure hope so.

David was all bubbly telling them tonight how many people were telling him how good he sounded on the guitar. He needed that alot.

Well.....gonna get off here......

Love to all my family

It was a good Mothers Day. Mama came to church with us this morning....not sure she really enjoyed it but I was glad to have her there with us anyway. Everyone from the old church was glad to see her.
Shaye asked me this morning if I would say something about Mama tonight. So I told how I remembered how when I was little...under 5 that Mama took in ironing and I remember her ironing and singing Gospel songs...and I remember dancing around the room with her. I think she gave me the love of music before Daddy did. Then I told them how when I was around 2 years old that my ears were so infected and my drums had burst...and DrLeopold had given me so many penicillan shots that she finally told Mama that if she gave me one more shot that it would destroy my kidneys. She then said that if the infection didnt clear up that I might go deaf. But Mama opted not to give me any more medicine. I remember her going home with me and I remember sitting in her lap during the night with my ears pounding in pain and the infection from my ears running down the sides of my face...and sitting in Mamas lap in front of the old stove in the rocking chair . I remember her taking my hand and putting it on the Bible and sayng "Devil youre a liar! You will not make Cathy deaf" And she had me say it too. And Mama said my ears cleared up! And I am not deaf! Oh I hear less out of my right ear....but I still hear really well. But the evidence is there when the doctors check....they see all the scarring and ask me if I have ear problems...and I tell them no. I believe that was because Mama prayed and refused to give up. Then I told them how Mama told me about when she was around 15 that she was in church and they had them praying that God would give them a special gift. She said she prayed for wisdom...to be wise. And she is wise...very wise. God gave her that gift. Sometimes I can call her with a problem and she just has the answer...sometimes she tells me to let her pray about it and see what she can come up with. Usually she comes up with something and I think "Why didnt I think of that?) Thats because she is wise! I told them I wanted wisdom like my Mama has.....and that I wanted to be like my Mom.....that she is a wonderful example to follow and has been and is a wonderful Mother to me.

Bro. Lamb sang the M-O-T-H-E-R song tonight...he sang it the right way and then the funny way me and him made up a few years ago....it was funny all over again.
Then me and David sang "Wayfaring Stranger".....I told them how it made me think of Ginny and Ernie....that they used to sing it when they first got married....and it brought back good memories of them and when Ernie was a Christian. David sounded really good on the guitar. Becky told him afterwards that he sure could play that guitar. That made him feel good. Bro. Lamb told David when he walked out of church "You are just what she has needed all these years" and David said "No she is what I have needed all these years". Wasnt that sweet? Aw GULP :) They said we did good on the song. There is such a good feeling at that church....its undescribable.
After church a big bunch of us went to Taco Villa....we were sitting my Becky, her mom and her brother Tony...he is a nut....always kidding. But I like him alot. He once told me that since I had lost my brother that he would be my big brother...sweet huh?

We ate lunch at Mama and Daddys....Elias and GInny were there....had brisket, potato salad, beans....it was delicious.

Was a good day.

Nothing much of interest to mention today. I worked...enough said I suppose about that.

Mama and Ginny left around 345 to go to Abilene to see Nancy......got there around 7. I hope they have a good time. I dont think I could have got my fat butt in that horse trailor to stay the night....haha They will be ok I am sure.

Tomorrow is my last day to work this week.....I have the pager for these days off...so there is always a chance they will call be in....I sure hope they dont....I need my days off...

Daddy said he got hisself a white house burger and was gonna putter in his garden when I called him to let him know Mama had arrived safely. He said Belle was keeping him company.

I think I will call him and make sure he didnt fall or something in the yard.....I wont worry about him that way.

Donkey shorts yall

Now I know why David doesnt cook. I made a meatloaf to put in the oven and laid out two potatoes to cook in the microwave. He put the potatoes in the oven...which normally would have been ok. Only difference is that I usually wrap them in foil...but they havent been getting done...so I meant for him to microwave them....
Anyway....when he goes to take the meatloaf and potatoes out...he lays one on a plate and turned around...and KABOOM....the potatoe exploded!!! All over the kitchen......blew the whole inside CLEAN out of the skin....the skin was complete! Never have I ever seen such a think!! hahaha......but man that was a mess to clean up.....potatoes turn to slime...and it was all over the cabinets....was totally gross feeling....... Scared the crap out of David......he took photos....so I will have to post them for yall to see. If I knew how to put them on here I would....Elias can you help me ???

Work was insanely busy today......I sent ambulances and firetrucks all over creation and finally at around 7pm I got a house fire....was in a ritzy neighborhood..and it was blazin. Also at around 7pm a guy runs his truck into the wall of the bank at 7th/Grant....one of the firemen just walked in the bank.....we also had to evacuate people from the west side.....SWAT was going to raid a house and there was reported to be explosives there...we had to have a fire truck standby in case they blew something up. People kept calling asking when they could go back home...

Mama said that she and Ginny were gonna leave tomorrow afternoon to drive to Abilene...and come back Saturday...I guess mostly for Ginnys sake. Maybe it will take her mind of things for a day. I hate that she is going through this AGAIN. I do believe the Lord has someone for her...but I DONT believe its Lonnie. I dont think you should have to BEG and PLEAD with someone to love you....either they do just because they do or they dont.

Well.....I have bored my audience enough......

"So smile for awhile and lets be jolly....love shouldnt be so melancholy.......along with the sunshine..theres gotta be a little rain sometimes"
Ah songs....sometimes they fit so well huh?
SO my day today.....I bought groceries.....mailed David's Mom a letter package with two gospel CD's I made her and some pictures of David.....not much but I dont think any of her other kids do anything for her....so maybe she will like it.
I bought Mama a cute little plant at Albertsons..I had never heard of it...cant remember it now.....but the leaves on it kind of looked like an African violet....but the blooms looked like orchids..and they were this dark magenta color...so pretty. I bought a bunch of white and red carnations for us all to wear on Mothers Day also. I left them with Mama for her to enjoy. I had just about talked myself out of wearing one since NO ONE seems to follow or remember traditions anymore. But I do.....so I went ahead and bought them. I think Mama and maybe Daddy is going to church with us Sunday....I hope so anyway.

I stopped and got gas in my car.......fought for 30 minutes trying to get the gas cap on the dang tank....I dont get it...its a freakin gas cap forevermore....you put it in and turn it....and POP it comes back out! Drives me nuts........then there is always some MAN waiting for you to move and you can read his mind "Stupid women".....and I want to go rip his door open and pull his hair out and tell him to BITE ME......all the while I am STILL trying to screw the stupid thing in....finally I drive off in frustration and get to Mama's and fight with it somemore! Man.....BOTHERATION! Dont get it......

Mama said that she and Ginny were planning on driving to see Nancy in Abilene Saturday..and coming back that night. I asked Mama if Nancy was gonna be receptive to Ginny and she said Nancy wasnt very friendly when she called her this morning.....so I dont know if it was Mamas imagination or what. Nancy is pretty perterbed with Ginny right now. Mama told me today that Lonnie sent some kind of email to Ginny saying that he was gonna be busy working and wouldnt be spending much time with her. But I asked Ginny last night (I didnt know he had sent an email then) and she said they were still ok...so I dont know..... Sounds like a brush off to me...if its what Mama said. She said he sounded very confused. Which is what we have been saying for awhile.....but why is he confused??? I wonder if he is seeing his new FEMALE boss? David said his request for unemployment from PErmian Rod was denied...and the girls in the office told David that he had filed for unemployment from 3 other places also. Sounds like he is trying to work the system...or get something for doing nothing.

Going back to work tomorrow......but I am off Sunday.....actually that only makes me short 4 hours this week..since I work a 48 hr week. So anyway......I wanted off on Mothers Day....

Well, I am about out of ramblings

Doing laundry today.....trying to clean my bathtub....my sink is stopped up...so its making things hard to do....I gotta buy some drain stuff I guess.....I wish I had a husband that would do these things.
I guess I am feeling kinda down today. I dont feel good...I feel tired and worn out...and really have no reason to. I dont get my housework done...I feel overwhelmed....have so many things to do and not enough energy to accomplish them all. I get worn out with David...he thinks he is doing his share by turning the water on and letting it run for an hour by itself and taking the trash out ONCE a month. I am tired of having to do it all...and I frankly fail miserably. I hear the voice in my head saying "But think how lonesome you would be without him"....but I sure would have a clean house and I sure wouldnt be in so much debt and having to watch every cent I spend either! That wears on me bad...when things arent clean and neat....drives me nuts actually.....but I cant find a way to fight David with it....he dont give a crap about nothing that is important to me....so it just continues to drive me nuts. I cant imagine being so selfish....never considering others unless you see that it gains you something. I want to please everyone.....but usually please no one except Mama.....my good Ol Mama...she will always love me just as I am...with all my fat, illnesses and ugliness....she is always there for me.
Just Rambling on here.....I am glad no one reads this...why would they want to?

That is what the sermon was on tonight at church....in Mark where the Lord is asleep in the bottom of the boat and the men on the ship frantically awake him asking him if he doesnt care that they are gonna die...and the Lord speaks to the wind and calms the sea. Rough was saying how he doesnt know what people who dont know to pray or cant pray....what do they do when the storms of life occur? The funny thing is I testified before the sermon about how Friday at work when the weather service was calling us and saying that a tornado was of a surety coming our way...that I begin to pray and called Mama and Daddy and Ginny...to pray. Mama told me that she began to walk the floor of the house calling out to God to spare Odessa...and to protect our family and our properties. I told how I was watching out the windows and the clouds just began to part...and patches of blue begin to appear...and the clouds just made a circle around us. When I got home and checked the radar...it was exactly that....just made a complete O around us. Tornados were touching down in Stanton and Big Spring but nothing here at all! I said Thank GOD for praying Mothers!! Shaye come to me after church and said she loved that I had said that about Mothers. I told her I think my MOM has a red telephone that goes straight to God. I also told her that I want to be just like my Mom....that she is so wise. She said that was so neat that I had said that. I told her about Mama praying as a teenager for wisdom like Solomon in the Bible had...and I told Shaye that that was what I wanted also...wisdom...and that I prayed for that blessing upon myself.
I finished my second sleep test last night. I was supposed to do it Monday night but they had a cancellation call in Saturday night and she called me and asked if I wanted to do it. First I said no but then I thought well I can get it over with and I was good and tired from working all day. It was kinda stressful....but its over with. The sleep test was done with a CPAP machine as they call it...a nose piece was connected to my face with air blowing in my nose.....was kinda NOT fun....but she showed me the graph on her computer...how I had slept in a deep sleep with my body getting enough air. She said the first test I had done that I stayed in the first stage of sleep which is mainly a dozing state. But with the air mask....its not oxygen per se just air.....that I went through all stages of sleep..and most of the night stayed in the third stage of sleep which is a deep dreamless sleep. She asked me if I remembered dreaming and I said that I didnt guess I had any dreams...and she showed me that I had...on the graph one part showed my eye movement just accelerated rapidly....hence the term REM sleep....and that I was dreaming because my eyes were darting around like watching a movie in my mind. It was cool to see the graph of my own head. She told me that my first test...my heart rate was too fast...all night long...and it was when I went in last night also. But after I went to sleep and the mask was working....that my heart rate dropped to a normal level. Amazing what air does for us huh? So anyway.....obviously I need one of those masks.....
Well, its about time for a shower....
Tallyho folks.

Today this Catholic girl came up to me at work and said she was making a donation to her church and needed 200 names to go on each dollar. She said she would write the name of the person on the donation and say a prayer for each one as she did. I gave her 10 names...that is what she asked me for. I included Daddy, Mama, David, Nancy, Ginny, Melissa, Elias, William, Ruby and myself! So wait for a blessing.....cause God listens to prayers!

Had a really big mess up happen at work...wasnt my fault thank goodness....a girl put in a structure fire in the computer for me to dispatch but she put in the wrong address and I sent them the opposite direction from where they were supposed to go.....so I had to cancel 7 units and start 7 more the other way. Anyway when the melee was over.....the Battalion Chief called in...and I thought..oh great he is gonna chew me out for something that wasnt my fault but left me scrambling for the right units to go where...anyway...they called out it was for me and I picked up the phone and he says "I just wanted to tell you that you did a Bang up job...kept your cool even when we were talking over you and getting in your way." I told him that I had kinda snapped their heads off and he says "Not much and we deserved it anyway". Wasnt that nice?? I told him to tell my boss what a good job I had done, haha! He said he would! Made me feel really good.
I heard that I will training a girl on Fire probably in a month....I trained her on Police....now I get her on Fire. She is VERY timid...and they tell me I have the patience of JOB.....but she said they said "I was the best there is on Fire"...WOW...two compliments in one day!!! I am getting the big head!! not..... sure makes a person feel good to get compliments.....

I didnt hear anymore on George Pyburn.....dont know what became of that.....probably will hear eventually what they did with him. I remember when he and Juanita got married...I put their names in the church bulletin and I didnt know him then and I spelled his name Tyburn and he got all huffy about it...the old fart!
He was the old coot that complained on me mind you wearing my dresses too short when we were building the new church. IT was when we were in the one on Vine street...and I had sat down on the altar doing the transparencies and I was right in behind the projector and it was sooo HOT..and when I stood up my dress stuck to my legs. He told Bro Lamb that he saw my underwear!!!! I told Bro. Lamb that he should have been glad I had some on and why was he looking at my ass anyway??? Bro. Lamb laughed and laughed at me and said I was right. Then all the girls at church called MUTINY and began wearing SUPER short dresses and shorts...Ginny would remember that. FUNNY Memory.....

nite all

David works with this SLUT woman...and I am not exaggerating a bit. Guess who she is? She is Tommy from church's sister...that has two twin girls. Well. this woman...she wants my husband! I am quite contemplating pulling her stringy hair out and stuffing it down her throat. She is absolutely ugly as a post....I am beautiful upside her! David's not interested...but she keeps horsing after him....making girly faces at him and waving and dropping hints.....she is just a whore. He has told her...I am a married man....happily married. But she keeps on. She has slept with 90% of the guys at Permian Rod....she was making eyes at him today he said...
George Pyburn(Juanita stephens husband)...from the old Foursquare church...he was reported missing yesterday.....said he withdrew 25,000 from the bank and disappearred. The family said he has dementia.....basically forgetfullness at times....and wasnt in his right mind. Well he was located today in Waco and he said he didnt want anything to do with the family here and he was in his right mind....blah blah blah. Well the family was calling saying he wasnt in his right mind...blah blah blah..when I left...so I dont know what will become of that. I dont think he is in his right mind...barely was when we knew him....
I fixed us a meatloaf last night....David cooked it before I got home and it was sooo good....with a baked potato and bread and butter pickles...yummy. Tomorrow night on the menu is sandwiches....
well....I have been boring tonight......nothing funny to tell....

I went to buy groceries at Walmart today. When I was unloading my basket at the car I heard this kid screaming. At first I thought he was playing....but as he, his Mom and Dad got closer I could see he was throwing a wild fit. I mean WILD. His face was red as a beet and he was screaming and kicking his Dad who was carrying him...he was around 4 years old. Finally Dad gives him to Mom who wont do nothing either...she leaves his standing in the road screaming....laying in the road mind you screaming his head off. So anyway the little shit gets up.....and as he gets closer to me..he is looking right at me......I said "you need your ass whupped dont you?" and I squinted my eyes at him.......it was so FUNNY.....he shut up screaming and took off running....I wanted to say "RUN FOREST RUN". haha I wasnt sure he would understand me because he was a mexican...but when I said that to him....his eyes got big and he shut up!! haha.....Oh what I wouldnt have done for a camera! His Mom and Dad were looking at me like WOW....haha Made my day!
Storms blew in tonight.....I heard there was a tornado on the ground in Colorado City.....havent heard if any damage was done.
Going back to work tomorrow...oh yeah...NOT.
Its been so hot here today.
Nite all...

! Kings chapter 7....that is what the sermon was about last night at church. How the people were starving....in fact they were eating and buying "doves dung"! I had never caught that....that is pretty bad. Then...they even went so far as to eat each others children.....BAD. But 4 lepers...sitting at the gate...decided that they were gonna die anyway...so they might as well die with a full belly....and they headed out towards the Syrian army and the Lord caused that great army to hear the sound of abundance of chariots and horses coming...and they RAN...from 4 leprous men! Rough was talking how that at times in our life...we have to run home.....we run thinking all the time that we are giving up or giving in to what the devil is doing to us....but when we get "home"...the Lord has paved the way for us....and just when we think we are going home to "die"....actually the Lord is taking us to a better place....and has provided for us when we get there. He was referring to his own divorce....how his kids, house, possessions and all he owned was taken away...and finally he says...."I am going home"....which was to the little house behind his Mom and Dad. He said how lost and angry he felt.....but then things began to change....and look where he is today. I told David...he was that way too. David lived in his car for a year....doing nothing but drinking and being alone....and finally he came to the conclusion that he had to come "home"........ Very good message.
We went and ate at Taco Villa with the church bunch after church......it was fun...everyone made us feel so welcome and good. David said he had never been treated so nice by people that really didnt even know him. He said he feels very comfortable with them. As we were leaving...there was a song playing and Bro. Lamb ask me if I had heard that song by Brooks and Dunn called Believe....long story short...I went home and downloaded it for him and made him a CD. I took it to him today and visited with him and Sis Lamb for awhile. That was nice.....we were swapping stories about summer camp....and I was telling them about Johnny and Ronny throwing the night guards in the swimming pool, haha. Those were the days I suppose. Bro. Lamb was telling about one time he and Dub Jenkins were put in charge of a Easter egg hunt...only they didnt tell anyone that they didnt boil the eggs.....then they tricked the kids...told some of them to throw them at the others....then they played like they didnt know they were supposed to boil the eggs...haha. Stories like that.....it was fun reminiscing. David said Bro. Lamb told him at practice Saturday night how when he first met me....that he was expecting someone retarded....because Sis. McCurdy had told him that I was!! He said he was furious when he got to know me.....and realized that I was just super shy and introverted....not retarded....and he purposed in his heart to bring me out of myself and make me feel usefull...which he did. David said "He sure thinks alot of you. "
We ate hot dogs with Mama and Daddy tonight...they were so good....Daddy fixed fries too...yum.
Their well went out....they got it pulled and tonight they were out again and had the well guys out there when we left...hopefully it wont be nothing major.
I have my sleep test re-done next Monday night....dreading that a whole lot....but I guess I have to have it done.....

Good night Maryann

I hate money sometimes...or the lack of. I am tired of worrying where the next dime is coming from......
I am just tired of being tired. I was so sleepy today at work...I know twice I went to sleep....I hate that...makes me feel so old. I s'pose some would say I am old.
One more day of work.....
Gotta get Daddy a birthday card and present. Dont know what I am gonna get. Me and David kinda talked about getting him a new horseshoe set....Mama said He dont need that....but he dont need much of anything.....so...I dont know what I will get him.
I thought about also one of those wind up radios that are for when the electricity goes out...you just wind them up and they play for a certain amount of time..then you wind them up again.
We will see on those things....